I'm finally back from Field Trip. For those of you who don't know, Field Trip is a week long photography conference that takes place at El Capitan Canyon outside of Santa Barbara, California. I was actually there working - one of my many jobs is for Photo Field Trip. I'm really a Jack of All trades and master of none. Truly. Most of my time at FT was spent screen printing shirts in a tent for hours on end. I think they came out great but we'll see what happens with that next year.
I wouldn't say I'm a proper photographer just yet - I took a photography class in art school (35mm bw stuff, full Monty)- so I understand the formal and technical aspects of it, but haven't really pursued it or spent time with it. It was humbling but also inspiring to see and meet all these photographers from around the world and what they do with it. I don't have the nicest camera, but I think it's good enough for now. I think my main challenge has been trying to figure out what to do with photography - what do I have to say or what do I want to photograph? As an artist, I've had to ask myself this question before, but the process (at least for me) for my visual art and photo are very different and have different goals.
I was pretty busy the entire time, so I only made it to one class, but I think I picked the right one. Yan Palmer gave an amazing and vulnerable talk about working from inner truth and truly finding what motivates you. I'm not doing a good job of describing it, because I'm making it sound very camp counselor-Y. It was not that - trust me. All I can say is that it sparked a question in me in a way that I haven't been challenged to answer before. I'm searching for those answers and have found a renewed drive to explore photography again. It's very easy to be discouraged, especially being surrounded by so many amazing photographers, but I'm going to move forward, and try to find the space to take risks with photo and be vulnerable in the way that I am in my visual art.